The Goddess of Mercy also deserves some mercy ~D
...mercy is not the correct word...rather some cuddles and verbal hugs^^

Maybe you should become a bit more resigned as for politics...I know that it's not good when you reach the point when you don't care anymore but it makes your life easier if you let things which you can't change at all just happen, say hello to the 'No Future'-fraction...
There's is less to be disappointed with then.

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Become the one you are.

I kind of cycle round and round with politics. I get to a point where I get absolutely saturated with disgust with it, where I can't stand it anymore, and I just have to detach. Then I stick my fingers in my ears and spend however long that I have to going around going "Nyaa Nyaa Nyaaa! I can't hear you! Nyaa Nyaa Nyaa!" whenever people try to talk to me about politics. Then eventually something filters through and pisses me off SOOOO much that I start paying attention and get involved in the madness all over again.

It's not that I ever stop caring, it's just that sometimes the sheer horror of what is really going on, and the near-impossibility of one person's efforts ever making a positive difference (it CAN happen, look at the Dalai Lama and Al Gore) overwhelms me, and a sense of self-preservation kicks in.

In the early Eighties I was very involved in the whole No Nukes thing - I had a new baby, and I didn't like the idea of her growing up on a planet contaminated with nuclear waste, or blown up by a nuclear war, call me silly. Then the more I got into it, and the more I learned, the more real it became, and eventually it started to get too real. I started having these post-apocalyptic nightmares of nuclear devastation, like in the beginning of the Terminator movie, and they wouldn't stop. I had to detach, for my own sanity.

So I did, and I managed to happily stay that way... until reality came knocking at my door again in a way I could not ignore. One of my favorite people in the whole world got sick with this new thing called AIDS, and the government was not doing a damned thing about it as it was spreading through the gay community like wildfire. Shit, it was only killing queers - Jerry Falwell said it was God's little payback, who cared? So tell me how I could sit around on my hands and do nothing through that? - it just wasn't in me. I had to get involved, and it was one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life.

It IS easier to withdraw, to detach, and sometimes it is absolutely necessary and completely understandable. But sometimes, at least for me, if there is something involved that you care about, you just have to suck up whatever personal cost there might be and take a stand. At least that's the way I see it... But ask me next week and I may have my fingers in my ears.

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One day I feel I'm ahead of the wheel
And the next day it's rolling over me
I can get back on, I can get back on....
Neil Peart/Rush/"Far Cry"

XD alright, then it's not as bad as I presumed it to be.
Ahah, now you are telling me just what I told you about becoming pregnant in such a wicked world.
I also heard about that man calling AIDS just God's payback and I got angry as well...but I can't drop him a line, can I?

...my father can go postal when politics is mentioned because we got a different problem over here, not war, not in neutral timid Austria XD but foreigners. We used to live in a little village, everybody knowing everybody and suddenly those waves washed over our land and now it's almost unrecognizable...so in the end I can understand what you want to tell me about that balance of being detached and caring.

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Become the one you are.

>.> <.< >.>

...and those emails should've numbered 10 if RL wasn't kicking my ass.

But you KNOW I'm thinking of you always, right?

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From my dear younger friend Triyune "so in the end I can understand what you want to tell me about that balance of being detached and caring," I always suspected that somewhere deep down, underneath your cynicism and dark pessimism, there lurked a little bit of a softy. I won't tell a soul!
And from my dear (slightly less ) young friend Befanini:
"and those emails should've numbered 10 if RL wasn't kicking my ass." I always assume that's the case when I don't hear from you - my only concern is that you take care of your health, my dear, and don't let RL kick your ass back into the hospital!

Big to you both - you are two that were in the front of my mind as I wrote of how thankful I feel for the new people in my life.


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One day I feel I'm ahead of the wheel
And the next day it's rolling over me
I can get back on, I can get back on....
Neil Peart/Rush/"Far Cry"